by duncan sheik

i'm awake in the afternoon
i fell asleep in the living room
and it's one of those moments
when everything is so clear

before the truth goes back into hiding
i want to decide 'cause it's worth deciding
to work on finding something more than this fear

it takes so much out of me to pretend
tell me now, tell me how to make amends

maybe, i need to see the daylight
to leave behind this half-life
don't you see i'm breaking down

lately, something here don't feel right
this is just a half-life
is there really no escape?
no escape from time
of any kind

i keep trying to understand
this thing and that thing, my fellow man
i guess I'll let you know
when i figure it out

but I don't mind a few mysteries
they can stay that way it's fine by me
and you are another mystery i am missing

it takes so much out of me to pretend

maybe, I need to see the daylight
to leave behind this half-life
don't you see I'm breaking down

lately, something here don't feel right
this is just a half-life
is there really no escape?
no escape from time
of any kind

come on lets fall in love
come on lets fall in love
come on lets fall in love
again

'cause lately something here don't feel right
this is just a half-life,
without you I am breaking down

wake me, let me see the daylight
save me from this half-life
let's you and I escape
escape from time

come on lets fall in love
come on lets fall in love
come on lets fall in love
again.^^

wooh! i finally got a copy of the film we need for monday! that's one load down and many others to go. but still... thank you, Lord. i had this big smile on my face the moment i walked out of video city. true, the cd that i would use just once cost me 200 and it was raining really hard [it reminded me of my other troubles] but i did get what i needed. and rain's good, right?

i'm teaching the kids at sunday school tomorrow. i better begin preparing the materials. hmm... i wonder what i would do... oh, and i almost forgot, i still have to watch the film for our ym conference tomorrow.^^

it's another friday. before, i really look forward to fridays because that meant it's the end of the week and the start of the weekend. well, not anymore because [1] i only have one class, not to mention a g.e. class pa, [2] i still have a class tomorrow, and [3] i'm just at home, and alone. huhu.

*sigh* how sad this day is. ^^

what does it really mean? i've been getting this message many times since i used this pc but so far, i don't see any difference. i bet there's an error going on somewhere... but i'm not so sure. my sister probably did something to make it crash - again. huhuhu... i am just the victim here.

anyway, i finally got to start on that difficult essay for one of my majors. it's about the philippine mass media audience. i realize it's really not that hard once you get to begin on it. i'm just pressured to do better this time because... well, my first essay turned out badly. right now i'm searching for english haikus. we need them in my other class. know any good ones?

i know you're all good people but if you answer no to all the questions,  you'd get a pretty disappointing answer like i have:

the person i got this quiz from got 'jack the ripper', by the way.^^

waah.
i am so bored.^^

napanood nio ba ang sona? sa tingin ko, ang galing ni gloria. ang galing nia mag-smile hehe. wala nanamang class dahil kay glenda. siguro para mapanood natin ang magandang hot pink na dress ni gloria sa tv, kinontranta niya ang pagasa  para mag-announce ng suspension of classes. hindi ko alam kung maganda ba yun o hinde [yung typhoon, i mean]. long weekend nanaman ito. sana hindi ako masanay kasi tataba talaga ako ng tataba sa kakakain dito sa bahay. heehe. nakagawa naman ako ng school work kahit papano... kaya lang madami pa rin. parang hindi na mauubos eveeer.

"i just wanna thank my butt... for not letting it come out the other end."
-justin timberlake, winner of best burp award
nickelodeon kid's choice awards

funny 'di ba?^^

i almost went through a whole week without blogging! wahoo!! sayang.
parang nakalimutan ko na nga that i even have a blog.

why i haven't been able to blog lately:
* busy-busyhan.
* i'm trying to organize my life. haha.
* i want to sleep more [but failing to do so] because even when i really don't have much acads to focus on, i still end up sleeping late. bakit kaya ganun?
* i'm sooo tired everyday. i already walk everyday in school [i want to save the tokikot jeep fare] but then when i'm on my way home i still have to walk. wala na kasing ayala loop jeeps pag gabi. kaya wala akong choice but to walk ng pagkalayo-layo... huhu.
* nothing really interesting happens these days. and i mean REALLY interesting.
* i have another journal to fill up, that of my creative writing class.
* our other computer is broken yet again. boohoo.

updates, updates!

this morning i was thinking of joining the org - for real this time. but now i'm again beginning to think otherwise. i really want to have an org, but i'm thinking that maybe i already missed the chance to do so. mukhang tapos na yung application period nung org na [supposedly] gusto ko salihan. i texted my old 'buddy' [during my first attempt at joining] from the org to ask. but until now... she hasn't replied yet. so either she changed her number, she has no load, she's a smart unlimitxt user refusing to text me because i'm globe, she hates me because i promised her i'd join and now it seems like i'm too late, or... wala lang. i really don't know. oh well. *sigh* i think i can survive college without an organization. but if ever, in the future, that would make my resume too blank. and i want to get involved in something else besides acads. so... ewan. ewan.

[don't read if you're not interested in anime whatsoever]
i'm beginning to love the shoujo animes i saw on tv: r.o.d. the tv and midori days. i'm a sucker for kick-ass girls, kaya sobrang na-coolan ako sa r.o.d. the lead trio has the power to manipulate books, or rather, papers. how original. and then there was this girl hisa, the bestfriend of anita. she has dark hair, cute face, and a sweet tiny voice. and she loves books! then yung midori days, gakulit!! hehehe... anyway, i still watch the old favorite - curious play. i'm still disgusted with miaka, still love nuriko, still wowed with tasuki, etcetera, etcetera... so there.^^